four; reminisence

good day
28 July, 2005

Hey everyone, I finally got the password and username from waiyee. Just read all the posts and posts from jocelyn's, dawn's and waiyee's blog, I suddenly feel a surge of emotion course through me. What’s happening? Why now?

It seems like there isn't any answer to the questions because no one noticed it, no one did anything until it’s too late. Cliques form, that’s inevitable, but what makes cliques harmful and dangerous is the fact that cliques form a gossip club, backstabbing people in the class. And that by itself is scary. Seemingly, our class is so enthusiastic, fun-loving but there are problems occurring and some people don’t even pay heed. Maybe because we are sec four, so we have too much things on our minds, maybe we have a lot of commitment, but aren’t these all excuses?

Even for myself, I’ve begun to see the really ugly side of people I once regarded as close friends. The pretty side of the swan has finally been destroyed, the swan is no longer pretty. Moodswings, deception, competitiveness, jealousy and so much more emotions have shown up in our classroom. It’s okay to have moodswings but try not to vent it on other people because they dun deserve the nasty attitude. Deception is something I cant tolerate in the slightness bit, we are supposed to be a close-knitted class, we really ought to be honest with each other. There is no point hiding behind the scenes, competing with your friend, asking them for their notes, asking them to check your answers etc etc. it’s really pointless, there isn’t a battle to fight, but a battle of your own confused, conflicting feelings. In this classroom, competition should not thrive because it makes friendships sour, it makes people resent you, it makes others look at you with a different eye. What’s the point really?

It’s the last few months already. Let’s dance the spirit fingers dance, drum the siting-dawn-audry rhythm and cherish all the times that we can spend together. Let’s prove to ourselves that we can and we will

Love, yinghui

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