26 August, 2005
today, on my way home with weiwen (403), we saw a blind man on the bus. he was saying "excuse me" into thin air, hoping someone could hear and turn around to ask him what he needed help for. weiwen heard and we asked him what he needed. he asked us if it was bukit batok mrt station yet. we said no, and that we would tell him when it is. so later, when it was approaching the mrt station, i came down to the first lvl and sat near him so that i won't forget. later, i saw this little boy, who pointed to the man with a little disgust and said "eeee, i'm scared". well, maybe the man looked a little sickly.
then after that, when he knew BB mrt station was the next stop, he stood up but he couldn't balance properly, cos he couldn't find the griphold. so i guided his hand there. then later i decided to take mrt from bukit batok anyway, because he sounds like he didn't know how to go to where he wanted to go. so i guided him all the way to the mrt station and on the way we had a little conversation.
i asked where he wanted to go and he said he's seeing another friend who's blowing flute at the mrt station. so i brought him there. his friend turned out to be another blind man asking for donations near the mrt station, if u guys walk past BB mrt station before..yeah.
okie, my point is, well. i can't imagine not being able to see my friends. or my friends not being able to see me. or both of us not being to see each other. boy. like mrs seah said, we are losing our perspective to what's important in life. then i was thinking, did we even have a perspective at all? or was it results all the way? you know they say results ain't everything, but without results, it's practically the end of the world for people like us, who are used to this result-orientated and ultra-protective environment.
waiyee, well, maybe reaasure yourself this way. you are not the only one feeling this way. we're going to be in this together =) i'm not even going to try consoling and tell you to not worry because i'm worrying myself. =) so yeah, now what we can do, is to hold on to sanity and the little things in life that makes us happy =) and well motivate ourselves to STUDY!
and yes. maintain our social connections well. like pccg lesson today, yumin's point about balancing studies and career. well yeahhh...social life no good, no mood to do anything else. let's jiayou. =)
i'll just like to add that feelings for the school, class and cca council and everything else never came so strongly before this period, maybe because things are slipping away very fast, i realise i need to get a griphold on things and cherish the time i have left. thank you for being part of my life in ny..404 =)
love,
zuojin
four left a trail- 11:31 PM
